14 Years Old...

This was me at 14, In my Goth phase. And with a bit of a shiner.I had beautifull soft brown curly hair, so I decided to perm it and dye it. Fucking my hair up is a talent I've always had ;-) so far its been black, blue, green (by accident) purple, pink, peach , red and blonde.I had no idea about make up but everyone I looked up to wore it so I would smear some godforsaken colour lipstick on every morning and let it smudge its way off during the day. I had my only long long term boyfriend during this year and a half. Terry. He was 16, I was his first girlfriend. He was a manipulative lying power freak and so was I. Essentially, we were both stupid.It worked for 6 months or so and then I got jealous and he got nasty. W e broke up 3 times I think, I dumped him twice, took him back and then he finished with me. I cried for an hour and then sighed with relief. I think the main problem was that it lasted too long. if it had been a 6 month stretch it would have been great. After we broke up he didnt speak to me for another 6 months. I never knew quite why. Now I rarely see him. But I don't have issues with him anymore. Going out with him was good for my confidence for a while. And fun for a while. Thats about it.

This photo was taken for casting a musical I went for, "Panic". I got the part of a romanian movie star. I wanted to play an air hostess. I had to wear a horrid beige dress. Aaah memories. That was with NP productions, a company i was with for YEARS, as a student and teacher. Now i hear its been taken over by someone else and theyre even changing the name. I think thats sad. I left because it was'nt challengig me anymore and all i was doing was recovering old ground. But I hav'nt found anything else to inspire me yet.